| sorry for not updating... i feel tired all the time =________=
well... got teh sleep... why am i so tired lately? hmmm... oh well... bye |
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| DAMN SHARDE!!! DO I HAVE TO UPDATE FOR YOU OR SUMETHIN!?!??! 
damn you lazy bastard....
oh! heLLo! ^.^ this is kagura_729! yeah.... kyokyo here is realli tickin me off.... -.-++++ probably always doing gaia...... >o< ok! i know i like gaia tOO but she tOO obessed or sumethin....-.- damn her.....
well bye bye!
*~*~kagura~*~* (for now....) |
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| Guess Im a little sad now adays....these are feelings to myself. Every time i come home i feel...restless....my parents...well...dont seem to really care for me. I always do something wrong..so tehy call me stupid...so now i probably am....i am starting to hate myself...and them. My anger comes out everyday.....when im upset my mom tells me to get that stupid look off my face...and...when i got that nosebleed..it was because my dad hit me in teh face with his fists...or something...cant remeber well anymore...it hrut...i could feel teh blood coming up my throat...he said was sorry. But im still angry. My mom says alot of things about slapping me...she likes to hit me alot when i dont do something..or make an abgry face. It's all my fault...why am i even here?? I hate coming home to a family that never listens to me..why cant i do anything right?? Im stupid...i sorta wanna die..again....i dreamed i stabbed myself with a knife once....but im scared and angry...i just...hate them...because i hate myself too guess. oh well... |
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| Guess Im a little sad now adays....these are feelings to myself. Every time i come home i feel...restless....my parents...well...dont seem to really care for me. I always do something wrong..so tehy call me stupid...so now i probably am....i am starting to hate myself...and them. My anger comes out everyday.....when im upset my mom tells me to get that stupid look off my face...and...when i got that nosebleed..it was because my dad hit me in teh face with his fists...or something...cant remeber well anymore...it hrut...i could feel teh blood coming up my throat...he said was sorry. But im still angry. My mom says alot of things about slapping me...she likes to hit me alot when i dont do something..or make an abgry face. It's all my fault...why am i even here?? I hate coming home to a family that never listens to me..why cant i do anything right?? Im stupid...i sorta wanna die..again....i dreamed i stabbed myself with a knife once....but im scared and angry...i just...hate them...because i hate myself too guess. oh well... |
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| I'm going to share a little story of how I almost died.
One day at grandma's house...I slept on the couch since there wasnt room on the beds for me.
I heard sounds of a struggle.I got up and went to the living room..a man had my aunt at the throat with a knife.He grabbed me..and was about to stab me.....right in the heart...before he could my grandma came at him with a gun and he took off.Sometimes I wished he had stabbed me but not anymore glad to be here still -___- getting stabbed....whaoh.....-_____- i was only around 8 years old.There my story with an ok ending cause if it wasnt i wouldnt be talkin now! |
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